I'm Rachna, an artist-designer by profession but who I am runs much deeper. For the longest time I considered art to be my only identity, and used it as a shield. My shadow-self, if you will. It spoke for me when I didn't. There is truth to it being my identity, but I've come to realize that that's not entirely it. With this new-found realization that it's really just a fraction of my identity, the last few months have been unexpectedly transformative. I've concluded that my true medium is actually curiosity. How fun.

I fully recognize my ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ might seem a little out of the ordinary. Almost certain it's the good kind. I'm not a scientist or a researcher by title, and I don't fit the standard academic mold either. I'm a creative who thinks in questions and is very hungry for answers. I don't just want to look at and accept things. I want to understand the infra beneath, especially as a non-tech. My brain usually moves ten steps ahead of what my hands can currently build. This friction between what my brain can conceive and what I can physically manifest is one of my latest obsessions. I tell myself it's a feature and not the other one, as long as I keep finding ways to close the gap. The obsession feels effortless and I feel puppeteered by an indescribable urge to make things, learn, and explore this weird convergence where art, tech, and humanity collide. Even though I am a non-tech, it feels like I'm rapidly becoming technical because the questions I'm asking require it.

I've always been the cliche example of having 50 tabs open, but lately, I'm the person with 50 tabs open per browser workspace. This is not because I'm distracted, but because I'm trying to trace the thread between seemingly disparate points. I love going down rabbit holes to try and make sense of it all. Why, despite our "exponential" growth, does Parkinson's disease not have a more accessible and affordable long-term treatment, apart from DBS (▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▒)? Why is the onus unintentionally, yet fully, placed on the person who breaks the cycle of trauma? How do crows, octopuses, and beluga whales share a specific type of smart and why is a part of that being used to entertain us, like we aren't flooded with options otherwise? Is there a way I can leverage these new tools at my disposal to build something that takes a step in the right direction for any of the aforementioned and other questions that lurk in my mind?

The list is honestly never-ending. Sometimes being inundated with these questions I have no answers to can get overwhelming. So I shun them in a bookmark folder to be accessed later or rage quit depending on the kind of day I'm experiencing. What I do know is I'd love to go through every possible thought I obsess over and turn them into projects. In my fantasy, I have myself convinced that given the right tools and enough free time, I'll make at least one ▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ ▒▒▒ ▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒. I may be out of my depth right now, but that doesn't mean I will be forever. Infinite monkey theorem and all that.

I'm someone who doesn't like to stay in one lane. I'm self-taught across every technical software and discipline I work in, with no blueprint and no guiding hand. I went to art school, but it took me 7 years to finish a 4 year degree. That might tell.